It felt so good to hear Idx's voice again after so looongggggg. Didn't go for the avatar screening today. one because it was late in the evening :/  two, I thought I couldn't make it and they've booked seats. Oh well there's always next time! I've revamped my lj again, this time I think it looks more appeasing. I've got loads of packing to do :/ and mum brought new swimsuits for everyone. I kinda look like an ice skater in water wearing that suit. When it comes to journal entries I feel that words aren't adequate enough to capture the mixed synaesthesia feeling I have now. Like Swaying Bitterly. How does that sound? This journal doesn't really capture the real me. I'd say about 45%? okay, make it around 55% Its hovering somewhere on that line. I've only written stuff of what people would think of me, their perceptions not mine. Should I write something different they'll go, this is so not Athirah or probably she quoted it somewhere. Signs. I need to lose weight by the way. The holiday craze or fever, whatever you call it, even passing A level moods is starting to have a tool on me, its making me lazy. Perhaps I should find work again at MOE. Get rid of this before it becomes a habit. I know working at MOE isn't easy. Long hours, awful food but you'll be well fed when they have guest and talks etc.

My feet are getting cold and old. I need to let them lose, in the water maybe? Dear world, how has life affected you lately?
I've been wearing out too thin.

Perhaps I should get myself a new blog hmph...

I'll come back when you call me, no need to say goodbye

 I'm leaving for Melaka from Saturday to Monday just in case you're wondering where I've been. Going swimming (:
xoxo to the lovely people! Happy holidays ahead!

 

I want these love stockings!

A laptop! Like finally. I've been to a place where technology is rural, no lines, hand phones and internet. Technically, I've been out of civilization for a bit. Did loads of cooking and tried new recipes and as promised to Qisti, here's the photos of what I've been brewing recently.

 

   They turned out okay I guess. It was my first time cooking it. That heart there is of course for someone special whom I've been missing terribly these few days <3 and yes Qisti I missed you too! I think I've become a lazy bum these few days. I've grown up and I'm legal. But people still view me as a fourteen year old. Its so frustrating to convince people, well certain people. I need to get more air and a holiday. As inspired by Sarah and Rockstar diaries, I've decided to make this too

 

Yesterday was an awesome and amazing night of laughter, fun, FOOD, LIME, smoke, soot and loads and loads of jokes. Haven't got much photos here though, more when Ju uploads them. I was so tired when I got back with my legs sore all over. Nevertheless it was good and worth it. Joked all the way and Raph made loads of funny jokes over lime and Titus. The food was great and so was the finale - sparkles thanks to Ms Lin (:
43C is so unpredictable at some all times.Will miss the good times we had in the past.
 

 

Today was awesome because I get to see Idx and ate ice cream while listening to the soundtrack of 500 days of summer. Turns out we both wore grey! Haha, coincidence much? (: We especially like the song Us by Regina Spector. She's really great on the vocals. I want more blissful outings like these. (500) days of summer was awesome, it was sort of refreshing in a way We ate ice cream with marshmallows, seeing children play, giggled, took pictures, our kinda summer (:

 
This is a story of boy meets girl. The boy, Tom Hansen of Margate, New Jersey, grew up believing that he'd never truly be happy until the day he met the one. This belief stemmed from early exposure to sad British pop music and a total mis-reading of the movie 'The Graduate'. The girl, Summer Finn of Shinnecock, Michigan, did not share this belief. Since the disintegration of her parent's marriage she'd only love two things. The first was her long dark hair. The second was how easily she could cut it off and not feel a thing. Tom meets Summer on January 8th. He knows almost immediately she is who he has been searching for. This is a story of boy meets girl, but you should know upfront, this is not a love story.
~ (500) Day of Summer

Will be away till the 17 like that. Contact me via fb or email. Till then! toodles. Xoxo

well that's it.the end of the A level journey. it was excruciating, with pain, tears, no blood though, so much sweat and sleepless nights and tough tough challenges to get through. now that its finally over I feel free that this heavy burden is lifted off from my shoulders and I could stretch myself up and have some fun and more more sleep. the lit paper 4 was a relief! thank God the consultation with ms lin which gave me mush goosebumps wasn't in vain! so music did COME OUT FOR TEMPEST! (: the others were fairly alright. headed off to pasta mania after the paper because I had cravings for some pizza with mozarella cheese! my favourite! and then coffee bean. too bad starbucks isn't halal or i've already queued up for the free drinks esp. the lattes. haha. but its okay! i still get coffee bean and bf met the old pri school classmate! hahaha. after that headed home (: the last journey. me and idx already have lined ourselves up with plans to do after this. Can't wait for that. I'm being optimistic about the service thing. Its going to be hard but we'll make it through. I would like to thank God, for all the things that were made possible and for his Gracious on this journey. My mom who smsed me everyday wishing me all the best for my papers and praying for me. Dad, you and your go-to-NUS- thing. My dearest bf who stood by me all these while. You know what you did! and having complete faith in me. My sisters who listened to my every complains and hardship preparing for the papers and later, my complains about the paper and staying up with me as i studied late at night and the jia yous. Mr ko, my favourite tution teacher for the daily motivations and chocolates and the best tution teacher a student can ever have. My best friend Qisti love, to pray and support me and walking beside me. I love you babe.My friends, you know who you are eileen, saiyidah and all. thanks a lot for supporting me. for all that you guys have done, I'm ENTIRELY GRATEFUL.

<3 faved!

* took this at the causeway.

Been in malaysia for hari raya haji. At last I could take a nice breather! The food was great and so was the company. The best part was no one gets in the way and everyone blends happily together. I could even experiment my cooking there and made them all a nice beef stew and a spicy beef stir fry! Yay! Didn't study much because of that. I'm either cooking, watching the telly because it has over ten channels that I've never heard of or just sleeping. I managed to finish off the harry potter 6 ps2. heh. Yeap, I'm the only one who plays and champions that particular game. Kinda corny but still, heh, unbeatable (:

A few more days and it will all be over. I'm still kinda caught in between to throw or not to throw my books. I mean what if I repeat? Touch wood and fingers crossed though, I just don't want to regret anything. I can't wait to be able to read fantasy books, do the stuff I love like cooking, baking with my cousins and just relax and not worry about anything and of course, have endless outings with bf!

will update about my days soon! keep in touch (: